I'm offically old.
I turned 40 yesterday.
I'm not having any more Birthdays to get older.
Every year moving forward I will become a year younger.
:)
That is all.
xo
Saturday, 23 June 2012
Thursday, 21 June 2012
BIRTHDAYS!
A few months ago Single & Picky and I went to Bowen Island for dinner and to see a friend of mine perform a solo gig. I swore up and down that there was a reason why this restaurant was my favourite etc. Not to mention the music.
We laughed, enjoyed the environment while we ate this:
Steak wrapped in bacon, on local asparagus and 2 dozen friggin delicious prawns on top of goat cheese grits.
In all honesty, we should have split this meal. We did not.
We opened our mouths and inhaled.
While enjoying our orgasm in a bowl, we listened to this:
Adam Woodall Band.
However it was a solo gig for Adam.
So it sounded more like this:
Whilst S&P's eyes continued to roll into the back of her head from nostalgic music and amazing food, she muttered something about her birthday plans being changed to come to this place!!!
And she did.
We received the prettiest invitations in the mail inviting us to help celebrate such an amazing person entering the next decade of her life, in an amazing environment.
And we did.
S&P had raved to all her invited guest that they wouldn't be disappointed etc.
If only they could hear the music too...
And they did.
When S&P confirmed we were having her birthday at my favourite (now hers) restaurant, I hired Adam to do a gig for her birthday.
Upon arriving she was all like, "Hey! Your friend is here!!!!"
Once seated I let her know that his performance that night was her b-day gift.
Needless to say it was icing on the cake.
Everyone enjoyed themselves greatly.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JB! WOOT WOOT!
Thank you for inviting me to be part of your special day.
I'm so glad it was everything and more for you!
xoxo
In other news. I went back to Bowen to our restaurant with my Aunt and had the deep fried pickles. Sounds weird you say? OMG ORGASM!
I need a bigger font.
OMG ORGASM!!!!
Alas I'm not sharing the name of the restaurant cos I want it to remain special.
So you'll just have to take my word for it.
xo
Sunday, 17 June 2012
Thursday, 7 June 2012
Employed. For Now.
After the epic of all epic meltdowns yesterday, I got a job. Again. It's local. It's 10G less a year than I was making. BUT it's better than being on EI I guess.
It won't be forever. But in the mean time, I will be upgrading my computer skills so I can go from intermediate to advance.
After I applied, the guy called me and asked if I was aware of where I applied too. lol I laughed and explained the story of hardship I've been having finding employment etc.
I was just impressed I wasn't discriminated against, as all my jobs have been administrative. I interviewed, and by the time I got home, they had offered me the position.
I accepted. The pay sucks donkey ass. But it's a job. I won't be homeless in a month.
I have to send a huge Thank You to everyone in blog-o-sphere family, personal friends, and facebook friends, who offered an ear, a shoulder, and money to get me by. I am truly humbled and honoured to have such great people in my life looking out for me.
So thank you again to all of you, who offered a kind word of support, while I continued to have daily epic meltdowns.
It won't be forever. But in the mean time, I will be upgrading my computer skills so I can go from intermediate to advance.
After I applied, the guy called me and asked if I was aware of where I applied too. lol I laughed and explained the story of hardship I've been having finding employment etc.
I was just impressed I wasn't discriminated against, as all my jobs have been administrative. I interviewed, and by the time I got home, they had offered me the position.
I accepted. The pay sucks donkey ass. But it's a job. I won't be homeless in a month.
I have to send a huge Thank You to everyone in blog-o-sphere family, personal friends, and facebook friends, who offered an ear, a shoulder, and money to get me by. I am truly humbled and honoured to have such great people in my life looking out for me.
So thank you again to all of you, who offered a kind word of support, while I continued to have daily epic meltdowns.
Wednesday, 6 June 2012
I really don't know what I'm going to do.
I'm still not having any luck finding work. I'm signed on with practically every single employment agent, and site out there. Mostly cos no matter what network you use to find employment, an agency is attached to it. You have to do the song and dance with them in order for them to submit your resume to their hiring client.
What frustrates me, is there are all.these.jobs.out.there. However, I wonder how many are really serious about hiring? I've applied to everything I have experience in, qualify for, am over qualified for, then applied to entry level positions from restaurants, to hotel maid staff, driving positions and everything in between. I've even called 3 of the last 4 employers I've had, to see if any of them were hiring.
I can't be this unemployable. I receive positive feedback from the clients via the agents, as it's part of their duty to report on how you interview etc. I've all agencies mention I have a good resume. It's the economy they say. Everyone is having a hard time. If so, then who are all these employers hiring if there is so many of us having a hard time finding work?
At the end of this month, I will have spent my last dollar. I will not have more money for August rent/bills/groceries. I will have to sell off my belongings and beg a sibling to take me in. And that doesn't feel good, knowing I have 5 siblings, and only one... ONE will temporally take me in. The others, well, they keep saying, "it will all be okay", what they really mean, is they don't want to be inconvenienced with my probable homelessness.
I have a roommate, but he's got a weird way of thinking at times. If he learns that I've run out of money, he'll move out. Which would make matter worse.
My worse fears have all come to light these past few months. I'm unemployed, single, turning 40, and about to be homeless.
I'm beyond exhausted. I don't even have the strength to freak out, and panic anymore. The reality of it is, I might have to move in with family, if they'll have me. Cos I tend not to take anyone's word, when they offer to help, cos I find most people say that kind of stuff to be nice, and are not really in the position to follow through. So what If I have to go to my family and say, I have to move in? Suddenly, the spare room isn't available. It was all talk.
What am I going to do? One more person tells me it's all going to work out, I don't know what I'd do. Cos what if it doesn't? Then what? I can't pull a job and rent out of my ass after July 1st. I'll be broke, and going into arrears at that point.
I've hit rock bottom. I'm out of options that are healthy and safe.
What frustrates me, is there are all.these.jobs.out.there. However, I wonder how many are really serious about hiring? I've applied to everything I have experience in, qualify for, am over qualified for, then applied to entry level positions from restaurants, to hotel maid staff, driving positions and everything in between. I've even called 3 of the last 4 employers I've had, to see if any of them were hiring.
I can't be this unemployable. I receive positive feedback from the clients via the agents, as it's part of their duty to report on how you interview etc. I've all agencies mention I have a good resume. It's the economy they say. Everyone is having a hard time. If so, then who are all these employers hiring if there is so many of us having a hard time finding work?
At the end of this month, I will have spent my last dollar. I will not have more money for August rent/bills/groceries. I will have to sell off my belongings and beg a sibling to take me in. And that doesn't feel good, knowing I have 5 siblings, and only one... ONE will temporally take me in. The others, well, they keep saying, "it will all be okay", what they really mean, is they don't want to be inconvenienced with my probable homelessness.
I have a roommate, but he's got a weird way of thinking at times. If he learns that I've run out of money, he'll move out. Which would make matter worse.
My worse fears have all come to light these past few months. I'm unemployed, single, turning 40, and about to be homeless.
I'm beyond exhausted. I don't even have the strength to freak out, and panic anymore. The reality of it is, I might have to move in with family, if they'll have me. Cos I tend not to take anyone's word, when they offer to help, cos I find most people say that kind of stuff to be nice, and are not really in the position to follow through. So what If I have to go to my family and say, I have to move in? Suddenly, the spare room isn't available. It was all talk.
What am I going to do? One more person tells me it's all going to work out, I don't know what I'd do. Cos what if it doesn't? Then what? I can't pull a job and rent out of my ass after July 1st. I'll be broke, and going into arrears at that point.
I've hit rock bottom. I'm out of options that are healthy and safe.
Sunday, 3 June 2012
40 Before 40 Finalized.
I turn 40 in a couple weeks. I'm abandoning this list. I have more important things to worry about, than finishing this list. Like finding employment. (it's already been 6 months) and helping my best friend thru the domestic abuse she's gone through, and is currently in and out of court for custody and criminal charges against her ex.
I'm crossing a few more things off this 40 before 40 list !
*Black - Haven't even attempted yet.
*Blue - Complete or on going
*Purple Italic - Fail or opted out of doing.
3. Weigh in at 135 lbs- HA! Not even close.
.12. Learn to snowboard (I’ve lived in Vancouver my whole life never gone)*gasp*
14. Go snowshoeing
17. Buy my first set of golf clubs - although I have them picked out.
18. Get my teeth whitened - looking to see if my dentist can cover this.
19. Buy my first camera!!! (see spare, take a photography class)
21. Picnic more often, I'm surrounded by parks and ocean
23. Go kayaking (again, surrounded by water, you'd think I'd be more active, use to be)
38. Do 10 full push ups in a row. I can do 5.
1. Get a passport - work in process. Paper work filled out, just have to file.
2. Cook lasagna from scratch- done.
4. Save up an emergency fund of$5000- $3000 started saving, but had to dip into it, after I was laid off.
5. Buy a newer car (mid SUV) within 6 years of the current year. – Rebuilding my credit - Sigh got the car loan approved the day before I got my lay off notice. But hey, my credit is more decent than I thought it was.7. Buy a king size bed - DONE! And resold it.
9. Buy a Barbeque - Have one picked out. Will pick up for my 40th B-day in a couple weeks
15. Spend considerable more time by the ocean.
16. Join a gym and attend DONE (June 2,2009)
20. Learn about personal financing and get mine under control. Work in progress with Smart Cookies, Vancouver based Company, Finance for women by women.
22. Be a softer woman. Let men wear the pants and be men. - Work in Progress -Employed Elizabeth Singleton - aka Love Coach(Dec 09) This is harder than I though. March 2010
I’ve recently been fitted for a new bag and picked out a new tent
25. Gave me an idea for future entries.. list all my first date activities. Blog idea - Done
26. Tell my friends/family I LOVE THEM at the end of EVERY phone call.
(a contestant process)
28. Go to the Cabin in Kitimat,BC (Sept 2009) DONE
29. Be more consistent as a person. Manners, calmness etc. On going.
30. Go to the dentist.- Done- Dec 20th 29th and July 22 2011
31. Update wardrobe to be more stylish/professional.- Ongoing
32. Make the effort to seriously smile more (whether its random or intentional)-
Work In Progress
33. Donate blood more often. March, September, December,2010 and on going.
Had to stop March – November 2011 due to the Accutante.
35. Stop needing acceptance from my siblings - 100% DONE
Funny enough Summer 2011 they started to make the effort.
36. Do more things for myself that make me happy. On Going
37. Improve my flexibility with yoga. Up to twice a week now. I have a love/hate with yoga. Taking a break while on the accutane.
39. Love freely without the fear of being hurt.(enough said D)-work in progress
Employed Elizabeth Singleton - aka Love Coach(Dec 09)
40. Send post cards of Vancouver to family back east. (who doesn’t love getting post cards)
11. Booked to Renew my enhanced drivers license - Jan 2011
8. Create Sunday dinners w/family/closest friends - Fail
13. Conquer the Grouse Grind again under 1.15 hours
Just not interested in putting my body thru that again. = Fail.
24. Buy all new camping gear. FAIL, Well I did get fitted for and buy a new sleeping bag.
27. Buy a printer/scanner for home
10. Be part of a creative photo shoot. (July 2009)- Fail - opted out
34. Learn how to paint my apt.- the museum is teaching me, but haven't painted yet....I ended up painting all the doors, trim and window pans in my apt before the roommate moved in Summer 2011. Will not paint my apt. I will hire someone to do it.
Spares
41. Build a network of professional contacts. - Done and on going
42. Take a photography class.(only when after I purchase the camera.....)43. Frame pictures of family & friends. on going.
44. Get my eyes examined. Feb 2010- Done
45. File 2008 taxes -Done
46. File 2009/2010 Taxes in Feb 2011
47. Volunteer. Done April 2010- May 2011 Returning Nov 2011
And there you have it. I have done a few things, and quit on others. Finances, employment etc, and pure laziness at times all contributed to it.
I'm crossing a few more things off this 40 before 40 list !
*Black - Haven't even attempted yet.
*Blue - Complete or on going
*Purple Italic - Fail or opted out of doing.
3. Weigh in at 135 lbs- HA! Not even close.
.12. Learn to snowboard (I’ve lived in Vancouver my whole life never gone)*gasp*
14. Go snowshoeing
17. Buy my first set of golf clubs - although I have them picked out.
18. Get my teeth whitened - looking to see if my dentist can cover this.
19. Buy my first camera!!! (see spare, take a photography class)
21. Picnic more often, I'm surrounded by parks and ocean
23. Go kayaking (again, surrounded by water, you'd think I'd be more active, use to be)
38. Do 10 full push ups in a row. I can do 5.
1. Get a passport - work in process. Paper work filled out, just have to file.
2. Cook lasagna from scratch- done.
4. Save up an emergency fund of
5. Buy a newer car (mid SUV) within 6 years of the current year. – Rebuilding my credit - Sigh got the car loan approved the day before I got my lay off notice. But hey, my credit is more decent than I thought it was.7. Buy a king size bed - DONE! And resold it.
9. Buy a Barbeque - Have one picked out. Will pick up for my 40th B-day in a couple weeks
15. Spend considerable more time by the ocean.
16. Join a gym and attend DONE (June 2,2009)
20. Learn about personal financing and get mine under control. Work in progress with Smart Cookies, Vancouver based Company, Finance for women by women.
22. Be a softer woman. Let men wear the pants and be men. - Work in Progress -Employed Elizabeth Singleton - aka Love Coach(Dec 09) This is harder than I though. March 2010
I’ve recently been fitted for a new bag and picked out a new tent
25. Gave me an idea for future entries.. list all my first date activities. Blog idea - Done
26. Tell my friends/family I LOVE THEM at the end of EVERY phone call.
(a contestant process)
28. Go to the Cabin in Kitimat,BC (Sept 2009) DONE
29. Be more consistent as a person. Manners, calmness etc. On going.
30. Go to the dentist.- Done- Dec 20th 29th and July 22 2011
31. Update wardrobe to be more stylish/professional.- Ongoing
32. Make the effort to seriously smile more (whether its random or intentional)-
Work In Progress
33. Donate blood more often. March, September, December,2010 and on going.
Had to stop March – November 2011 due to the Accutante.
35. Stop needing acceptance from my siblings - 100% DONE
Funny enough Summer 2011 they started to make the effort.
36. Do more things for myself that make me happy. On Going
37. Improve my flexibility with yoga. Up to twice a week now. I have a love/hate with yoga. Taking a break while on the accutane.
39. Love freely without the fear of being hurt.(enough said D)-work in progress
Employed Elizabeth Singleton - aka Love Coach(Dec 09)
40. Send post cards of Vancouver to family back east. (who doesn’t love getting post cards)
11. Booked to Renew my enhanced drivers license - Jan 2011
8. Create Sunday dinners w/family/closest friends - Fail
13. Conquer the Grouse Grind again under 1.15 hours
Just not interested in putting my body thru that again. = Fail.
24. Buy all new camping gear. FAIL, Well I did get fitted for and buy a new sleeping bag.
27. Buy a printer/scanner for home
10. Be part of a creative photo shoot. (July 2009)- Fail - opted out
34. Learn how to paint my apt.- the museum is teaching me, but haven't painted yet....I ended up painting all the doors, trim and window pans in my apt before the roommate moved in Summer 2011. Will not paint my apt. I will hire someone to do it.
Spares
41. Build a network of professional contacts. - Done and on going
42. Take a photography class.(only when after I purchase the camera.....)43. Frame pictures of family & friends. on going.
44. Get my eyes examined. Feb 2010- Done
45. File 2008 taxes -Done
46. File 2009/2010 Taxes in Feb 2011
47. Volunteer. Done April 2010- May 2011 Returning Nov 2011
And there you have it. I have done a few things, and quit on others. Finances, employment etc, and pure laziness at times all contributed to it.
I know you're exhausted when....
..... I misspell the simplest of words.
After having an chat with Single & Picky tonight, I realized I probably need assistance calming down and sleeping, while the stress of not being able to find employment really starts to take it's toll. I shouldn't be having daily melt downs. We're not talking small fits of crying. It's epic. There is shouting at whoever will let me shout in their direction.
Not sure why I didn't think of that myself sooner. However, talking out loud about the choices with S&P, I came to the conclusion(very slowly I might add), that Ativan does not do anything for my sleep. Sure it makes my groggy, but alas, no sleep. That is what Zoplica is for. :)
Hope to be picking up some very soon.
In other news. The roommate comes home in 8 days. Kind of excited to have him home I sleep much better when he's here, and in general feel safer. No matter how much we drive each other crazy.
After having an chat with Single & Picky tonight, I realized I probably need assistance calming down and sleeping, while the stress of not being able to find employment really starts to take it's toll. I shouldn't be having daily melt downs. We're not talking small fits of crying. It's epic. There is shouting at whoever will let me shout in their direction.
Not sure why I didn't think of that myself sooner. However, talking out loud about the choices with S&P, I came to the conclusion(very slowly I might add), that Ativan does not do anything for my sleep. Sure it makes my groggy, but alas, no sleep. That is what Zoplica is for. :)
Hope to be picking up some very soon.
In other news. The roommate comes home in 8 days. Kind of excited to have him home I sleep much better when he's here, and in general feel safer. No matter how much we drive each other crazy.
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