Accutane Update - 4 months and counting

I came to realize recently a common factor in all the accutane blogs I read.... there isn't one update after 4 months. Only that they finished the cycle.  I'm 4 months 2weeks in. 2.5 months left!!!!

By now, I'm use to the aches and pains, and although they move around, so its consistently a "new" pain to get use too. Random sleepless nights, bouts of heavy depression,  and I've adapted to the dryness of my skin, lips, occasionally the lady bits, and my hair. 

I'm coming up on 2 full weeks, since the last time I actually put shampoo in my hair. I wet and condition it often, but actual shampoo? Not a friggin chance! I think it's the only thing preventing my hair from thinning. I'll wash it when it accumulates enough oil to actually make my hair dirty. Even with the Moroccan Oil, and other Redken Products, I still do not feel the need to wash my hair.

I'm gaining weight, and have a problem with my right arm which is being looked at on the 19th. The arm pain (feels like its broken) could be a result/side effect of the accutane. As the weeks go by it's harder to lift the arm or twist it in every day activities without it feeling like it could snap off at any point.  I'd welcome that idea if the pain would go away and I'd have full use of my arm again.

Overall, I've adjusted to taking this stupid pill. My thoughts on the end result? I'm still going to having reoccurring hormonal acne. I get it even now while taking the Accutane.  End result, I will not take this cycle again. I'm over it. The depression is a work of art.  It is a side effect, and when I'm feeling all blah (which seems to be more often than not) I tell myself it's the pills, and this will all be over in September. :) It seems to help me cope a bit. 

I can see the light at the end of this cycle and simply.can.not.wait.

Single & Picky, and I hung out Saturday, and I tell ya, can we gab!  Good times for such a low key afternoon.  P.S. Loving the jam!!! Yum! Thanks!

During out visit and many many topics we covered, I made silent notes to myself about what to talk about to my new shrink...(when I finally locate one I like).  I have trust issues.  You readers may have already known this about me. I however, just admitted it to myself for the first time ever. I do. Have trust issues. And am determined to get help with that.

Where is all stems from is the other question. Is it being overly observant at times, being able to call bullshit, or being a pessimist and I look for it, so it finds me? Was there some event of mass deception that I'm unable to recall?

Regardless, I don't trust many people.  I like to think I do until you give me a reason not too, though I don't think that's all that honest either.

I whole heartily trust a few people.

That's all I'm going to say about it for now, cos I really think it's something I need to work on in private.