It seems that building character and growing, never ends.
This time, it's all for the better.
I broke up with two longest friendships. One of 39 years (my mums best friend) and my best friend of 28 years. Neither of which have been bringing anything positive to my life in years. It's not a big dramatic ending. I simply decided I'm worth more. I deleted them from my phones, and all social media.
Since then, I've cried. A lot. One, for grieving the end of long relationship, that weren't enough, or too much.
Second, crying to release all the bad, negative energy they've encapsulated me with over the years.
I honestly thought I'd make this decision, wake up the next day, and be brand spanking new. That's not what's happening at all. I guess it takes time to release.
I was told once, the hardest decisions, are usually the best ones. This seems to be ringing true.
I'll miss the good memories, and even the persons. Although I won't miss the negative ongoing drama.
I reject the drama. I have my own well being and mental health to consider. If that makes me selfish, so be it. It's ME time. Me first. I know I've said it before. Many times even. It's been a ongoing process of stepping stones. Ones I'm no longer scared of slipping on.:D
Another break up.. A co-worker.
Her drama, she has more than half the office involved in... her personal life affects her work load. Which in turns affects other departments. I do not have the energy to help her. I've advised her, I can not be there for her. She is only to come to me for the positive stuff. I'm not equipped to deal with her drama, especially when she has no intentions of doing anything about it.She was annoyed and said I was abandoning her in her time of need... My response was, are the other 9 people you confide in, not enough? Come on seriously, even work gave her a private loan. A substantial one, cos she's beyond in debt, yet, refuses to pull her kids out of private school. Wont drop the nanny. Or the maid. Has three cell phones. (1) for boys (2) one for her ex and kids (3) I'm not even sure why.... I'm sorry, but if you're living way beyond your means, and can fix it, but won't, or even attempt.... I can't be around you.
As this may read as a negative post. It's not. It's a very huge step forward, in a great way.
