I've been looking back on my post, and sadly realize I haven't logged on since Xmas. oops.
I can't even say, I've been reading any of you. I haven't. I'm sorry. I do miss you. I'm catching up...right now!
Nothing much is going on.
I'm working with a personal trainer. Took up golf lessons, and turns out, I have some natural talent. woot woot. I gave up on love, and went to delete my dating account, only to meet a man, who, if he is everything in person, as he is on the phone.. I may not be single much longer... :D
okay, back to the title of this post. Just general updates really.
I'm 16 days late for my period. 2 months ago I was 10 days late. All HPT have been negative. Although this one being the longest, I'm making a doctor apt. Simply for the fact, if it's ectopic, I want it taken care of, before it takes care of me! Otherwise, I think my doctor will have a hard time denying any longer that I'm indeed/probably peri-menopausal. All the women in my family were smack-dab in it by their early 40's. Exactly where I am now. MIDDLE AGED! fml. At least I don't look my age. I'd say 5 years younger.
Men:
There are two. One is in the running. The other I've dropped into the friend zone. He brings everything to the table I'm looking for... sadly, I'm not attracted to him, physically, or emotionally. Mentally I am. It's not enough so I've discovered. He'll be a great friend, and I'm going to enjoy his company immensely , should he be okay with only being friends.
Love:
I'm still in love with the ex. We've making efforts to be friends. We get along etc.
With my luck, when the man in the above paragraph obtains my love, my ex will probably decide he wants to be with me. I'll deal with that, when/if that happens.
Friends:
The gf who gave me an ultimatum learned it was a stupid request. She still has made no effort to delete my ex from her life. I call her out on stupidity, with a mixture of support. I rarely see her in person anymore.
I've made no excuses for deleting people from my life that do not pose a positive outlook. Don't get me wrong, we all have a few friends we love to bitch too etc.. but they do not need to be the dominant presence in our lives. :D
In all the years leading to this moment. I own who I am. I like her. I'm learning to love her. I'm giving her a break. It doesn't all need to be black and white. There is a lot of grey areas, and many, many, stepping stones to go. Failure doesn't have to be a negative. You tried it. Decided if it was stupid, fun, lame, awesome..... and went from there. The point. You tried it. Poo-poo it after you give it a fair chance. Whatever it may be. :D and that's the new way I roll.
Ladies and gentlemen... that's all I have ... today.
I'll make more effort to post more. If not for you, for myself own sanity. :D
