Another Jen Lancaster Book ~ Such A Pretty Fat

I think again the title says it all.

I read my first JL book two weeks ago and now I'm addicted to her snarky,charismatic wit.

I began reading "Such A Pretty Fat" last night and couldn't put it down. I read at night to help me fall asleep. I guess this is my own fault for reading something great at bedtime!

Currently been making some small changes in life, joined a gym, got my BMI (which I may post so you can follow my progress or failure)making a list of 40 things to do before I turn 40 (3 yrs, living everyDAY(not life) to its fullest..... it's just an add boost of motivation to read about the rise and fall of dieting.

D-I-E-T is a four letter word people!!! I don't say it parse, I most certainly do NOT do it, although that MIGHT explain why I'm 5'2 and 203 lbs now, shapely and curvy, so I've always carried any additional girth well.
Yes I broke the 200 lbs seal...and didn't cry!

Not crying I think would have been a sign of denial. This way I'm mad at myself for letting it go for so long, and I even worked at a gym for 6 yrs and had a free membership. Know how many times I used the free mmbshp? Probably 6 months in total (spread out of course) more so when I had a trainer.

I'm not putting an amount of weight to lose in a certain timeline, fear that I'll lose motivation. I'll be working out Sunday -Wednesday for about 2 hours a night.
1 hr of cardio, 45 weights/full body workout, 15 cardio cool down.

of course I'll start off slow, and build up my endurance. having worked at a gym and not used it, I still manage to see people start all gungho and end up hurting themselves or get discouraged cos they can't do the things the guy beside them is doing. Who btw has probably been working out 5 days/wk for a few years.. so give yourself a break.

Another thing I learned/noticed about gym monkeys and regular users. NO ONE CARES what you look like! They are all there for the same reason, to get fit, be a healthier them. Surprisingly enough, the camaraderie is amazing as well.

I girl I worked with, about 4'11 and well over 200 lbs, in her early 20's, started working out and would cry often upon her return at lunch from the gym. She was convinced people were mocking her or laughing etc. She broke down once on the treadmill and I was amazed to see fellow members come to her support. In weeks to come, it was in the form of smiles, small talk, just a "you can do it" attitude and told her there will be days she wont do as well as others. listen to your body.

As much as I hate the cooperate evil empire when I worked there and still do, the members make up for so much more. This is the gym I joined.

Yes I'm aware, I went off topic and you're saying "what does the JL book have to do with you losing weight?"

My point is, I'm allowed to give myself permission to fail once in a while. It will be hard. There will be tears, many I'm sure. There will be swearing and talking in my head, how I'd like to shove a hose full of high calorie goop into the skinny bitch running on the treadmill next to me while I struggle to keep up a fast walk... is all normal.

It's the beginning of something new. Its never easy. No one likes change, well not at first.

My goal.... To be the skinny bitch running on a treadmill beside someone who is starting to exercise for the first time in a long time, or ever and giggle at the thought of the cursing that is occurring in her head. But I will always look at those newbies, smile and give an non patronizing encouraging word.