Birthday's in Reverse Moving Forward...

I'm offically old.

I turned 40 yesterday.

I'm not having any more Birthdays to get older.

Every year moving forward I will become a year younger.

:)

That is all.

xo

BIRTHDAYS!

A few months ago Single & Picky and I went to Bowen Island for dinner and to see a friend of mine perform a solo gig. I swore up and down that there was a reason why this restaurant was my favourite etc. Not to mention the music.

We laughed, enjoyed the environment while we ate this:

Steak wrapped in bacon, on local asparagus and 2 dozen friggin delicious prawns on top of goat cheese grits.

In all honesty, we should have split this meal. We did not.

We opened our mouths and inhaled.

While enjoying our orgasm in a bowl, we listened to this:

Adam Woodall Band.

However it was a solo gig for Adam.

So it sounded more like this:

Whilst S&P's eyes continued to roll into the back of her head from nostalgic music and amazing food, she muttered something about her birthday plans being changed to come to this place!!!

And she did.

We received the prettiest invitations in the mail inviting us to help celebrate such an amazing person entering the next decade of her life, in an amazing environment.

And we did.

S&P had raved to all her invited guest that they wouldn't be disappointed etc.

If only they could hear the music too...

And they did.

When S&P confirmed we were having her birthday at my favourite (now hers) restaurant, I hired Adam to do a gig for her birthday.

Upon arriving she was all like, "Hey! Your friend is here!!!!"

Once seated I let her know that his performance that night was her b-day gift.

Needless to say it was icing on the cake.

Everyone enjoyed themselves greatly.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JB! WOOT WOOT!

Thank you for inviting me to be part of your special day.

I'm so glad it was everything and more for you!

xoxo

In other news. I went back to Bowen to our restaurant with my Aunt and had the deep fried pickles. Sounds weird you say? OMG ORGASM!

I need a bigger font.

OMG ORGASM!!!!

Alas I'm not sharing the name of the restaurant cos I want it to remain special.

So you'll just have to take my word for it.

xo

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!

Happy Father's Day to all my male readers who are Dads!

Hope you have a wonderful day!

xo

Employed. For Now.

After the epic of all epic meltdowns yesterday, I got a job. Again. It's local. It's 10G less a year than I was making. BUT it's better than being on EI I guess.

It won't be forever. But in the mean time, I will be upgrading my computer skills so I can go from intermediate to advance.

After I applied, the guy called me and asked if I was aware of where I applied too. lol I laughed and explained the story of hardship I've been having finding employment etc.

I was just impressed I wasn't discriminated against, as all my jobs have been administrative. I interviewed, and by the time I got home, they had offered me the position.

I accepted. The pay sucks donkey ass. But it's a job. I won't be homeless in a month.

I have to send a huge Thank You to everyone in blog-o-sphere family, personal friends, and facebook friends, who offered an ear, a shoulder, and money to get me by. I am truly humbled and honoured to have such great people in my life looking out for me.

So thank you again to all of you, who offered a kind word of support, while I continued to have daily epic meltdowns.

I really don't know what I'm going to do.

I'm still not having any luck finding work. I'm signed on with practically every single employment agent, and site out there. Mostly cos no matter what network you use to find employment, an agency is attached to it. You have to do the song and dance with them in order for them to submit your resume to their hiring client.

What frustrates me, is there are all.these.jobs.out.there. However, I wonder how many are really serious about hiring? I've applied to everything I have experience in, qualify for, am over qualified for, then applied to entry level positions from restaurants, to hotel maid staff, driving positions and everything in between. I've even called 3 of the last 4 employers I've had, to see if any of them were hiring.

I can't be this unemployable. I receive positive feedback from the clients via the agents, as it's part of their duty to report on how you interview etc. I've all agencies mention I have a good resume. It's the economy they say. Everyone is having a hard time. If so, then who are all these employers hiring if there is so many of us having a hard time finding work?

At the end of this month, I will have spent my last dollar. I will not have more money for August rent/bills/groceries. I will have to sell off my belongings and beg a sibling to take me in. And that doesn't feel good, knowing I have 5 siblings, and only one... ONE will temporally take me in. The others, well, they keep saying, "it will all be okay", what they really mean, is they don't want to be inconvenienced with my probable homelessness.

I have a roommate, but he's got a weird way of thinking at times. If he learns that I've run out of money, he'll move out.  Which would make matter worse.

My worse fears have all come to light these past few months. I'm unemployed, single, turning 40, and about to be homeless.

I'm beyond exhausted. I don't even have the strength to freak out, and panic anymore. The reality of it is, I might have to move in with family, if they'll have me. Cos I tend not to take anyone's word, when they offer to help, cos I find most people say that kind of stuff to be nice, and are not really in the position to follow through. So what If I have to go to my family and say, I have to move in? Suddenly, the spare room isn't available. It was all talk.

What am I going to do? One more person tells me it's all going to work out, I don't know what I'd do. Cos what if it doesn't? Then what? I can't pull a job and rent out of my ass after July 1st. I'll be broke, and going into arrears at that point.

I've hit rock bottom. I'm out of options that are healthy and safe.