I stated here that I felt I was ready to re-enter the dating world.
Feeling fairly good about my start out of the gates. 4 out of 4. score!
So I thought. And although I'm bummed, disappointed, I'm not surprised.
However, I am surprised at the level of sadness I'm feeling for myself.
It started 4 for 4, now we're down to 1.
Guy #1-Booty call in the making.
He was honest about his wants, we moved forward accordingly.
Then nothing. No contact, no emails, text msg's and deleted his profile.
Ok, this isn't really a loss, but why go thru the trouble if you're not serious?
Maybe he found someone else? Maybe he decided he wasn't interested?
Maybe he's just playing games? Doesn't matter, I'm not chasing him down, I've deleted him.
Guy #2 -Horoscope guy. Aka Jo-Flo
He had a slow start about contacting me after our first exchange.
Then I noticed his profile pictured changed. From a hot blond in his early 30's to a picture of a kid barely 19, and not of the same guy. Hmmm
He emailed me to say a few kind words and explained he'd be using the name Jo-Flo until he was more comfortable with the whole site etc. Fine. We've all been there but you're an adult and and not a public servant or a celebrity, so I don't quite understand but at least he was forth coming. (losing brownie points though) and up went a yellow card.
Today, I got another email from him with pictures attached, Subject line - The real me.
Not hideous but not impressed. Red Flag. I replied asking him why all the deception?
And not to mention he changed his profile interest from "dating" to "other relationship" and he was no longer single but "living together".
Delete. Can not even bother discussing this further with him. I'm not interested.
What else is he going to lie/deceive me about later?
Guy # 3- Still deleted.
Guy #4 - JC
So far he's actually a real possibility.
He's still in contact. We'll see.
So after all my start out of the gates hasn't been as successful as I first thought.
The rejection doesn't hurt, it's part of the game, however it is exhausting.
I'm starting to wonder if being single forever would just be easier and having meaningless sex.....
Soooooooooooo, I contacted a man from the old roster TB. Yes my reconnection with him hasn't been a great one. But he is a good time without the hassle.
Rejected. Ugh. For months he's been perusing me and now that I'm available and willing, he's not. I give up. Taken him off the list completely.
I thought I wanted something casual and maybe I still do. What I'd like is for those who talk a good talk to put their mouth where... well.. I can not think of something witty and appropriate, but you get my point.
I suspect my mood doesn't help the fact I'm sore, and tired.
Cause - the new bed? It has a cashmere top and I'm allergic to wool. However there is a sheet, fitted mattress pad and then the fitted sheet between me and direct contact....
Soreness could be from that fact I think I MIGHT be over medicated with my thyroid at the moment. Don't freak out, it's normal to happen when tweaking ones thyroid meds. Side effects are swollen neck(check), tremors in hands(check) and sore upper back/shoulder/neck area (check). My follow up blood work results are on the 5th.
I will be back to normal soon. Alas I think it all contributes to my mood tonight.
The short of it is, I'm not feeling attractive, desired, or wanted right now.
Even despite the fact I'm having a few amazing hair days.
I'm a mixed bag of blah and emotions right now.
I want to be with anyone, but I want to be alone.
I'm tired, bored and annoyed.
yep.
ReplyDeletebeen that way all weekend...
Sorry to hear this - it can feel like such a numbers game at times... but I've got my fingers crossed for Guy #4 turning out great!
ReplyDeleteThanks Matt79 just being a little hard on myself. - More updates on your date this past week please! :)
ReplyDeleteAll I can say is keep plugging along. There are losers out there, but there are still some good guys. Who knows, #4 could be a winner. With your sense of humor, I have no doubt you'll soon be fighting them off with a baseball bat. P.S. My wife tells me that good hair days are very important. Good luck.
ReplyDeleteBleh! I was feeling the same and questioning myself why I signed up on POF. To date, I haven't so much as opened another message after the last THREE had some dusty old men posing with their dogs and the introductory messages were all "Hi".
ReplyDeleteI guess the first order of business for you is to decide what you really want? Are you looking for a fun, good time or are you interested in a long term and serious relationship?
I think (at least for me), we're really cheating ourselves out of pursuing what we really want for fear of rejection or disappointment.
Sucks that you really have to do so much weeding out and trust me, anyone like your guy # 2 probably would have been deleted after the second contact.
Uh... let me dig for a positive twist... I'm thinking, I'm thinking. Oh yeah. The good part is that you're able to smell the bullshit a mile away and can cut your losses before too much time and energy has been invested.
=)
Hangover - I'm looking to date with something serious following. However while I'm looking, I want my short term needs med.
ReplyDelete#4 is looking more and more promising. We're graduating from emails to the phone tonight.
We tried in the past, but there was a glitch with our phones saying we'd be charged long distance charges for local calls.
Bothered - Thank your wife, good hair days are important. Thanks.
I think it's January or something like that the blah's are most definitely happening to me too. Though at least you have the good hair days. I emailed you a little while back - I don't know if it didn't get to you or what - but you can reach me at singleandpicky@gmail.com
ReplyDeleteS&P - I just sent you a private email. :)
ReplyDeleteYa I thought I was starting this year off with a bang. Oh well. Yes thank goodness for good hair days. They are so far and inbetween now that I'm blond. (so hard on the friggin hair)