Pull-Ups

I had to go jean shopping last night. :(
For the most part I like shopping, when it's a want....not a need. Although certain items I would just rather not. Bras, bathing suits and jeans. And I went alone!!!! That's like breaking some unwritten rule or something.

I went to three plus size stores where I've had success in the past and slowly came to realize I'm not going to get what I want, as all the pants over a size 12 (regardless of the store) are now made in what's referred to as "Comfort Fit". Really?  Really want to know what that is? They are fucking maternity pants!

Yes ladies and gents, I'm wearing maternity pull-ups.  Why? Cos the fashion industry seems to think all fat people are not privileged enough to wear pants with zippers!!! I seriously hope sales plummet so fast and they realize these pull-ups are not where it is at.

Now, I like the way the jeans look. I picked up two pair on sale. However I really hate how they feel. I feel like I'm wearing undergarments or my grandparents pants. Seriously.  Jeans have a non flexible front that usually holds all the goods in place if you have a pouch.  These "comfort fit" do not, which feels like I'm more exposed with my girth than I've ever felt in the 8 years I've been a plus size gal.

I'm not impressed in the least. Actually quite pissed off.

It's no secret I'm a plus size girl. I won't be this way forever and I've always bought clothes to fit my body as it is now. In short, even though being heavy sucks, I've been fairly secure with the way I feel about my body and myself as a whole.

.....Today is another story all together. For the first time in the 8 years since I've been bigger than a size 8/10,(my fittest 8/10) I feel unattractive, exposed, and heavy.  No, I feel obese. I feel like I don't look like I'm just overweight, I feel like I look obese. I can not wear pants with a zipper. Nope, it's not allowed now.  The only pants I can wear now have an elastic fucking waist line!!!! 

Seriously, to all those Brands Addition-Elle. MXM, Penningtons, Reitmans (plus and petite plus) and anyone else who carries a plus size line, COMFORT FIT  is NOT where it is at!!!!!

Not to mention, not all plus size people want to wear a dark blue or black jean in a friggin boot cut. So please make jeans with more options for heavy people. We have feelings too. We want to feel and look stylish/trendy too. Can not do that if the only pants I can get over a size 10 only come in one style. Dark or darker boot cut. Then to add insult to injury... the comfort fit!  One thing to make comfort fit an option, but to make it the only option and take aways zippers? I'm not impressed.

As a society, isn't it better for everyone if you do not fuck with people's emotions and self esteem? And if you're sitting there saying "well just lose the weight".. save me the effort of getting off my chair to smack you and go run your head into a wall for me. Not everyone who is heavy is capable of losing weight. Or has the means to do so.  I'm fortunate enough I'm capable, however for those who are not, please stop making these comfort fit as the only choice. Sure have them as an option, but not the ONLY OPTION.

The saddest thing is, all these plus size stores carry the same line. Doesn't matter where I go, I will find the same pants just with a different label on it.

You wouldn't think so, but zippers and pant styles are important to a person's self esteem when it comes to weight.

It makes more sense to me now, more than ever before why I've seen heavy people wearing moo-moo's.  Those are not flattering neither, but I understand how they ended up with that being their only option for clothing. As the fashion industry doesn't think of heavy people as people anymore.  Seems their attitude is more of a "they'll wear what we give them, cos they have too."

Shitty attitude.

....Is February, March over yet? I'm exhausted of being Bitter Betty lately. I wouldn't be though if people in general just stopped doing stupid things.