Rejected by a stranger.

I'd like to say this is a first for me, however it's not. It happened once before years ago.

I recently connected with a guy I went to high school with. Although we did not know each other in high school, facebook and it's 'people you may know' section put us in touch. He's handsome, but in a aging like a good wine kind of way, not the *gasp* you're ridiculously hot way.  He's not ugly.

We've been chatting it up very generically the last couple weeks.  Covered what we've been up to since high school etc.  It never crossed my mind once to flirt with him or inquire if he was single. Although we did learn that kind of stuff about each other. Even more so last week when he hit his head at work and ended up in hospital, twice, he asked me to keep him company on msn etc while he waited his turn to be seen. The second time I wasn't online with him, as it was thought he had a blood clot and might end up in surgery later that night etc. (Turned out everything is okay for now, but he's still in a lot of pain)

Last night was no different than any other conversation we've had. Except, I asked for his cell number (timing seemed right) to hangout and go do any of the assorted things we agreed we both like to do. As friends. At least I thought I implied it as friends.

Nope. He did not see it that way and abruptly ended our conversation online with:
"I only have talk on my cell no texting plan, plus I do not see anything "like that" happening between us. Game's starting! Have a nice night".

Me:  Wow. I did not think we were heading in a "like that" direction, but thanks for making it very clear you're not interested, when I hadn't indicated anything.

Him: K. Chat soon. Bye. offline

Me: I don't think so. Night.  He'll get that last message when he signs back on.

Okay, I've read and re-read our conversation history from day one. No where that I can see do I flirt with him or imply I'm interested in anything other than building a new rapport with someone I went to high school with 20 years ago.  Until that very moment, he'd been polite, easy to chat with, open etc. It was easy. We talked about going to hockey games, music gigs and just chilling as friends with friends. No dates or romance were ever hinted at, by either of us.  So wth?

I'm not going to bother asking him what was up with all that.  I'm still shocked at the abruptness of it all, but do not care enough to inquire as I rejected from a man I wasn't romantically interested in, in the first place, not yet anyways.(never say never, right? Its a defiant never now...)  Find Richard on msn...delete contact.  Facebook..... I'll delete tonight.  No point in staying in touch or keeping pleasantries after that.

I was rejected by someone I hadn't shown interest in.  lol But at the same time a small part of me felt very insecure by the rejection "it's my weight" I thought for a moment.  I had been deemed not good enough before we met.  That's what my mind said for a moment, then I shook it off and decided he was not worth the emotion wasted for that short moment.  It occurred to me that I am indeed lonely. And I blame my weight for part of it, and all the rest on myself for not being more diligent about losing it.