New Title to Replace the Old.

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LC update (old house guest).. this title, and post, for whatever reason has received the MOST amount of views over ALL OTHER POSTS!!! by the hundreds... This post isn't anything special. Or indicates what it's about.. which leaves me to suspect that LC herself has been obsessing over this entry. Or any others she's discovered. Hi, hope you're learning about your pattern from reading it, repeatedly.

When I go back and read over entries I've written about LC. I get mad, and then almost have to shake my head.. cos it was all a waste. Considering she is sleeping with the monster who hit her...again. THe power to change, and leave, and NEVER put yourself in that position is in your power. Instead, you crawl back into his bed,..... and I had to find out thru one of his friends. Who also informed me of the shit he says about you... yet, you don't leave. Money, the kids as excuses. are bullshit. You have the family and support system.. use them or shut up. Can't feel sorry or be worried for you when you have all the means at your disposal, and you run further into the fire.

I do not even know what to think.
She is behaving like every battered woman hiding the fact her spouse beats her.

Emailed her this morning asking her to call me and let me know the status of everything.

Me to her:
I called the house and left a message although not detailed, other than to have you call me back. Any word on the shelter/income housing? Call me when you get a chance let me know how the process is. How are you? Your jaw? Bruising ?


FYI remember to sign off properly from all your sites. facebook , hotmail etc.. closing the browser does not log you off. Hence you finding Jason's emails.


Be safe. xo..

Her Reply:

I'm ok, we had a good talk and all is fine. We definitely have a lot of shit to work out but it's all ok now. Don't worry

Me:

...til the next time.
You can't ask me not to worry. I trust him less than I did before and that was non existent. Continue to be safe and hope you guys can work out being civil (him) and mean it...

I wanted to remind her I meant what I said before, should it happen again. Though I didn't cos I'm afraid if it did, she wouldn't tell me.  Going to continue moving forward and enquire with the ministry if there is anything I can do, or at least get all the ducks in a row should it happen again. I'll know how to advise her with phone numbers ready to go, emergency shelters, church's etc where she can run too.  Worry about the kids after you get safe. He won't physically hurt them. He's already destroyed them with his mind games.(he tells the kids awful untrue things).

I really hate this say this, but I see a future for her without access to her kids, cos he can and in a matter of time, will prevent her from having anything to do with them, just to spite her, cos he can. And there isn't going to be a damn thing she can do. Other than accept it. 

I know how horrible and harsh I sound right now, but that is the reality of it. I do not have children, that doesn't make me non-maternal. I know how hard it is to not be with your kids. But if your kids are being brain washed to hate you? Then what? What do you do? How do you cope? Can you even? Do you stay and take a beating so you can be close to kids who apparently despise you?

Kills me that I can not fix this and that she is choosing to stay. She fell for his apology or so it seems. Can lead her to fantastic shoes, can't make her wear them. 

Infuriating.

Need some input.
Feeling truly helpless is new to me. Is there more I can be doing?