To-Do-List-2015

2014 wasn't shy of it's turmoil.
Betrayal, love, love lost, self realisation, self respect, friends lost & gained.

In the last 7 weeks there was a lot of frustration, and anger towards my roommates family. As unbeknown  to us, when they gave us a 3 yr old cat cos they had to move, that the cat was beyond ill.
Turned out she had advance kidney disease. Not that I couldn't deal with that, but lying to both of us, and then get mad at me, when I enquire with a new vet, who called theirs, to confirm the blood work. They gave us a sick cat. Whom after dropping a grand into her, trying to get her healthy, cos she really was a sweet sweet thing. She stopped responding to medication, and stopped eating pretty close all together.
Dec 23rd, I had to put her down. Didn't have her 7 weeks. I'm still mad, and sad. At the betrayal, the lies, and that I am responsible for having to make the decision to give her mercy. While her previous humans of 3 years were too cowardly to do it themselves.

Work is work. I'm at a stand still with my department manager, and what her "expectations are", and what my contract entitles my responsibilities to be. I already give way more than I'm required to give, and yet told repeatedly, that she feels I'm giving her the bare minimum. No matter how much I give, she will find a reason to withhold a performance raise. We do get cost of living, Xmas bonuses and department bonuses etc. Although it's the pride of being given a raise for a job well done. I decided to stop busting my ass, and only give what my contract states I must give. Not an ounce more. She doesn't look at the job being done, deadlines being met with conflicting priorities, and with amazing accuracy. She looks at it as me being defiant. sigh.

Love. Well, its ongoing. And always a work in progress. I've decided again to put the search for love on the back burner. Doesn't mean I'm not having some fun with ex's and friends, but that's for my own sanity. Not for love. ......

Which brings us to the To-Do-List 2015.
I'm tired of waiting on friends to get their shit together, or their "rolling with it" attitudes to make in my direction. I've dropped some without regret or hesitation, cos they're not a positive light in my life.

So. Here are the following things I'm doing this year.
Paddle boarding lessons. - Booked and paid for
Buy golf clubs, and start lessons again.
Tennis lessons....
Swimming lessons. I can swim, but want to make the most of my time in the water. Since I'm the most relaxed and happy in the water.
More road trips.
.... that's about it for now. More to follow I'm sure.