It's been interesting

Since last summer when I went to see family back east with my siblings, I haven't much desire to talk to my one sister. She creates drama and then plays the victim in the drama she created.
Maybe it's an age thing, being middle aged, I have zero tolerance for it, and her.
She's 56. seriously.

That being said, she's recently thrown fits about not being able to see pictures on my FB. Or found out that family came into town and only saw me. I'm met with: "why didn't they visit me? I've known them longer than you!" Short of telling her they simply dont like her pushy, rude, brash, and eccentric ways, maybe we get along better! I say nothing. I've learned how easy it is to simply not participate.
You do not have to attend every argument you're invited to. Easy words to live by. I'm learning a lot about the people around me. At work, in life, etc. but just keeping my mouth shut and not participating. Now, that isn't to say, if something true bad is being said or discussed, that I wont chime in and put that person in their place.

It really gets under her skin that I wont fight with her. Then accuses me of distances myself from the family. No, just you. I talk to the rest. But in her eyes, she's decided that I'm an outcast or black sheep now. hahah

I truly believe I'm just at an age where having history with people isnt enough. I recently learned that a friend of 30 years, who's family I spend holidays with, has been introducing me (or when speaking of me) as her arch nemesis. Really? 30 years and this is how you feel about me? My friendships are not competitions. With that said, see ya later. I do not care anymore.
Why do some people feel the need to always one up you?  I support my friends in their success, not belittle them and keep them down. Yes there is more of story there.

In other news, It's been a year of change. It's great. It's a constant progress, and it's attracting the right kind of people into my life. Not that they're weren't there before, I just had to really let go of those holding me back, belittling and causing drama so they can feel better about themselves.

As far as my siblings and their drama... well that is never going to change, and we do need family. I like to think my friends are my chosen family, but that is changing too.

I do have some great things going on in my life, sadly I cant talk about them here at the moment. Unfortunately, I feel someone in my life has found this blog, to the point that I don't want to share the great things going on, so they won't have a chance to discourage me, use it against me to start a fight, or just not being supportive in any way, cos it's not about them ,or can't be turned around to be about them.

In all the years I've been writing here, I've learned that I long for a solid family foundation. A supportive one. One where you want to call your family, "friend".  I have that will family back east, they're back east. Skype can only go so far. It's better than nothing for sure.

More changes my friends, more changes. :)