Good-Bye

Good-Bye 2011.

Good-bye to a job I was tired of, but comfortable in.

Good-Bye to my best friend LC.
Our relationship didn't last cos you went back to an abusive relationship. Or that I stopped trying to protect you, caring for you, or even just tried to keep the remainder in tact. There just simply was no point holding on anymore after you let go and stopped caring yourself. The good time will be remembered, nothing else. You're on your own now. God Speed for your safety.

Good-Bye to shitty friends who only call when they need something.

Good-Bye to old romances. Not all were bad, but nothing more to build on or have fully run their course.

Good-Bye to old acquaintances who inquired about specific details of my life. Then stirred pot for fun etc. Surprise! Bet you weren't aware how much I actually knew,  how much we all knew. Fed you a bunch of bullshit just to watch you spread the love. Thanks... friend.

Good-Bye to people who all are all excuses and no action.

Good-Bye to those whose actions continuously tell their true feelings over their words.

Good-Bye to going out of my way and making people always feel welcome, wanted and never left out, when it's never once been returned. Still haven't decided which is harder; spending major family oriented holidays alone, or ones revolving around friends? Don't worry about me, but gawd forbid if you ever have to spend it alone. I won't be the one making sure you're included this time.

Good-Bye to one way street relationships. If I've always had to call you first, for anything, and it's never been you calling first, you're history to me now.

Good-Bye cheating men of 2011. I believe you'll be harder to rid of, cos you're all so damn fucking sneaky about it until I've already started liking you.

Good-Bye 2011. You'll be remembered. Not missed.

I've finally had my full blown inconsolable stress cry. Now I can get my shit together. Deleted many people from my phone and facebook. Not even going to concern myself if you'll call me. You're dead to me now. 

2012 is still 30 minutes away and it's already started on a positive note. I've enrolled in two classes. Jan - April. Then maybe 1-2 more. I won't take classes in the fall/winter. Only in Winter/spring/summer programs. I've been looking at schooling the wrong way all.these.years. Instead of looking at it as a headache, I've started looking at it as I'm investing in myself. Ya ya I know, it took a friggin long time to come to that conclusion.

There are a few positive things I'll take from 2011. 
A few new people in my life. You you who you are. Thank you.

Good-bye to being loyal longer than necessary, always thinking of others first, being fair, kind, and quiet. 2012, you're in for a rude awakening.

Bring it on 2012. I'm ready. I'm for new beginnings. :)