Lost That Loving Feeling

It's that time of year at work things slow down to a skeleton crew. Now with the office closing and everyone having to use up any holidays before the end of the year, that slowness is starting sooner than latter.

We're almost at the 1/2 way mark and I'm about to pull out the magazines and just openly read them. The phone rings maybe 3 times a day. Work load is pretty non existent at this point. I did however ask for an early release from work effective the 16th. I'll be following up on that today. As the work wife says, she doesn't believe I'll get it. I hate to agree that she's right, but it's painful to be here. To be one of only a small handful of people left in the building that did not get an offer, and to watch new cliche's being formed, and being left out in general that much more. Not fun.

I just want to be at home, relaxing a bit before I have to really stress about work.  You know that saying, "stress can kill you", well it definitely screws with your body. I have a cold sore, the crohns episodes are on Day  5 with no relief in sight, blah blah blah, a few more things, but in short, my body is breaking down under the stress.  I have 35 days left on the Accutane and I'm having a break out. All that for what? To be back at square one?  Ya ya this is all woes is me.

People can say, don't stress, everything will be fine. It might as well be, but if I were to be all nonchalant about it, wouldn't I be tempting faith to backfire?

Okay onto a lighter note.

Friday, I hung out with Single & Picky. I had convinced her to come over and decorate my tree for me. What a trooper. She did, as I stood there not supervising, drinking wine, spazzing out over the what if's and trying not to cry. It was a welcome relieve to chat with someone about the whole work/love life stuff that isn't directly involved in it. 

We caught up on our lives in more depth on things we don't talk about here in blog world. I got to see what Directory Boy looks like. Hubba hubba. :-) I love how when we get together, we jump onto so many topics, (mostly my fault and alittle A.D.H.A) but I'd say, there probably isn't a topic left untouched when we get together. Overall, always a great visit. Thanks again doll for doing my tree. It's pretty. :-)

Edit Update:
My last day is the 16th. :-)
I'll get the much needed rest to gather my thoughts and chill the fukc out.