Short version of the previous post would be this.
I simply do not trust anyone right now. I'm weary of everyone and their intentions.
Period. hmph.
Monday, 28 February 2011
Sunday, 27 February 2011
Grow the Fuck Up List
My Dating Hangovers gave me this idea... and it struck a cord. Write a grow the fuck up list.
While I'm doing so, I'm also trying to take a picture of myself AFTER a good heart felt cry for a Holly McNarland album cover idea. Btw, much harder than it sounds. I haven't had much to cry about lately.
So I've plugged in my favorite men into my ears, invested in a cheap bottle of wine. (cos I"m not spending money and tears on a good bottle). Sorry Holly. Cheap works better. There are rules to it though.
It has to be honest. Simple. No hamming it up, no special effects makeup. And you have to let her know if you're okay with her posting these pictures on faceook, otherwise she'd given you an option to send them to a private email. Oh and you have to provide a "before" picture of you being happy. Not necessarily on the same day.
Back to the GTFUL. (grow the fuck up list)
My list isn't all that special. But it's a list. More so of defeating professional procrastination.
Part of me doesn't want to grow up. Something inside me says if I do, I'll lose the youth that keeps me young. Does that make sense? I imagine people who "grow up" to be no fun, too serious (all the time) and simply BORING! I am none of those things. Okay, I am a little serious at times, but when its warranted.
I prefer the 5 yr old in me to be present most of the time. It keeps life silly and fun. And just think of the memories it will/could provide.
Here is part of my list.
- Install bathroom hooks beside the tub so I no longer have to walk across the bathroom to get my towels/clothes or leave them on the floor.
- Invest in a proper bed frame for the new bed. Bed on the floor screams not mature or financially stable enough to have one. Btw, I had one for the double and queen, but not for the king, cos I'm not convinced I'm going to keep the bed yet.
- Get a fucking car. Not a beater. A real car.
- Have more savings
- Stop procrastinating in general. just get shit done.
-Pay my bills on time. Not be a month behind on anything again.
- Be grown up about my relationships. What I want, What I don't. (including friends)
- Love and run with reckless abandonment. (love without fear of being hurt) I can not remember who said it first (it was a blogger) but I love it and I try to implement it often.
- Dress my age. Jeans, sandals and hoodies are only good for the pub. Not dating. Not work. (although the president of said bargle company dresses that way) it's better if I have more serious options.
-Be serious about my retirement.
That's my list right now. I hold the rights and subject to change the above without notice.
While I'm doing so, I'm also trying to take a picture of myself AFTER a good heart felt cry for a Holly McNarland album cover idea. Btw, much harder than it sounds. I haven't had much to cry about lately.
So I've plugged in my favorite men into my ears, invested in a cheap bottle of wine. (cos I"m not spending money and tears on a good bottle). Sorry Holly. Cheap works better. There are rules to it though.
It has to be honest. Simple. No hamming it up, no special effects makeup. And you have to let her know if you're okay with her posting these pictures on faceook, otherwise she'd given you an option to send them to a private email. Oh and you have to provide a "before" picture of you being happy. Not necessarily on the same day.
Back to the GTFUL. (grow the fuck up list)
My list isn't all that special. But it's a list. More so of defeating professional procrastination.
Part of me doesn't want to grow up. Something inside me says if I do, I'll lose the youth that keeps me young. Does that make sense? I imagine people who "grow up" to be no fun, too serious (all the time) and simply BORING! I am none of those things. Okay, I am a little serious at times, but when its warranted.
I prefer the 5 yr old in me to be present most of the time. It keeps life silly and fun. And just think of the memories it will/could provide.
Here is part of my list.
- Install bathroom hooks beside the tub so I no longer have to walk across the bathroom to get my towels/clothes or leave them on the floor.
- Invest in a proper bed frame for the new bed. Bed on the floor screams not mature or financially stable enough to have one. Btw, I had one for the double and queen, but not for the king, cos I'm not convinced I'm going to keep the bed yet.
- Get a fucking car. Not a beater. A real car.
- Have more savings
- Stop procrastinating in general. just get shit done.
-Pay my bills on time. Not be a month behind on anything again.
- Be grown up about my relationships. What I want, What I don't. (including friends)
- Love and run with reckless abandonment. (love without fear of being hurt) I can not remember who said it first (it was a blogger) but I love it and I try to implement it often.
- Dress my age. Jeans, sandals and hoodies are only good for the pub. Not dating. Not work. (although the president of said bargle company dresses that way) it's better if I have more serious options.
-Be serious about my retirement.
That's my list right now. I hold the rights and subject to change the above without notice.
Saturday, 26 February 2011
TMI ALERT! But I HAVE to share
I"m mortified, embarrassed immensely, but laughing hysterically at the same time.
Can you guess?
I was enjoying a little 'self love' recently and never bothered to put my assistant ?? (lets give him a name - U guys can come up with a name.. til then its ?? - okay, make sense?) away. I left it on the night stand. No biggie right? That is until I woke up in the morning and once again I do not have any heat. Our poor apartment boiler is struggling with getting heat to the corner suites (aka MY APT) when a cold snap flows thru town. :(
Got to work and called the landlord advising to bleed the vents/radiators, again. Sigh.
I get home from work to find my door unlocked. "HELLLLLO?" I asked as I walked in.... "Hi!, I'm so and so" was replied from the living room, as I find a repair guy explaining that he is installing auto bleeders on my vents. Woot!!! This should eliminate the amount of times I have to call the landlord to do it manually and find the radiators leaking etc.
Blah blah blah... so back to the story...
I apologize for the mess in the apt. (hadn't taken the garbage out, and had clothes laying about) He gets back to work and I go about cleaning up the apt, well, cos it needed to be done.
I walk into my bedroom and see that my assistant ?? is not on my night stand....but now on my dresser.. STANDING UP RIGHT!!!!.. um-ya, that is NOT where I left it.
Which can only mean that both the landlord and the repair guy (Btw which is hot and my age) has actually touched it, moved it and stood it up right!!!
THE HUMILITY!!!
I try to go about cleaning without blushing. Open the wine I bought.. and make the best of it. The landlord shows up to supervise making small talk, as he must with a stranger in my apt, prior to me being home etc
Neither say anything or act uncomfortable.
What a story for the repair guy to go and tell his buddies.
When you guys have stopped laughing and pick yourselves up off the floor, could you all be so kind as too please find a name for my assistant ??
Can you guess?
I was enjoying a little 'self love' recently and never bothered to put my assistant ?? (lets give him a name - U guys can come up with a name.. til then its ?? - okay, make sense?) away. I left it on the night stand. No biggie right? That is until I woke up in the morning and once again I do not have any heat. Our poor apartment boiler is struggling with getting heat to the corner suites (aka MY APT) when a cold snap flows thru town. :(
Got to work and called the landlord advising to bleed the vents/radiators, again. Sigh.
I get home from work to find my door unlocked. "HELLLLLO?" I asked as I walked in.... "Hi!, I'm so and so" was replied from the living room, as I find a repair guy explaining that he is installing auto bleeders on my vents. Woot!!! This should eliminate the amount of times I have to call the landlord to do it manually and find the radiators leaking etc.
Blah blah blah... so back to the story...
I apologize for the mess in the apt. (hadn't taken the garbage out, and had clothes laying about) He gets back to work and I go about cleaning up the apt, well, cos it needed to be done.
I walk into my bedroom and see that my assistant ?? is not on my night stand....but now on my dresser.. STANDING UP RIGHT!!!!.. um-ya, that is NOT where I left it.
Which can only mean that both the landlord and the repair guy (Btw which is hot and my age) has actually touched it, moved it and stood it up right!!!
THE HUMILITY!!!
I try to go about cleaning without blushing. Open the wine I bought.. and make the best of it. The landlord shows up to supervise making small talk, as he must with a stranger in my apt, prior to me being home etc
Neither say anything or act uncomfortable.
What a story for the repair guy to go and tell his buddies.
When you guys have stopped laughing and pick yourselves up off the floor, could you all be so kind as too please find a name for my assistant ??
Thursday, 24 February 2011
Just Breathe (2am)
This song hits a chord with me.
Seems fitting. There is a verse in the song that always makes me tear up.
2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to
Hope you enjoy.
SPANX
Someone please tell me how I am a plus size princess and did not know what spanx were? Seriously!?
I love to wear skirts and dresses but found since gaining this weight, that simply wearing a slip or granny panties would not do the trick anymore to appear... smoother and avoid the chub-rub.
I was saying to a colleague the other day that this will be the year of dresses again etc... but I wasn't looking forward to the painful chaffing. And well, since I will be abstaining from sex for the next 6.5 months for the Accutane treatment, I do not have to worry about anyone seeing the unsightly appearance of that!
Chub Rub is what The Big Girl Blog calls it. It is the demise of your favourite jeans. It is the source of everything unsightly on your thighs when you want to be intimate or gawd forbid, wear a bathing suit.
You can be sure I'll be tracking down a pair of Spanx in the very near future and reviewing their product!
from the pictures on the Spanx Plus Size page, they look to be light weight and breathable. *phew*
There would be nothing worse than finding a magical cure for the chub-rub and then dying from over heating due to it.
The Spanx's come in all sorts of options. From panties, half leg, half calf, full body etc... Seriously, there is something for every outfit. Now I'm assuming that the site is in USD funds online.
Anyone know off the top of their head if I can purchase these things in the local department stores?
Better believe I'll be calling around soon.
I'm excited for this!
In addition The Big Girl Blog also posted a site for Jessica London wide calf boots!!! woot!
Got to love this girl. She has great style and shares her secrets with us!
Check these pretties out!! I'm getting them in Black and Carmel!!
Jessica London Boots and these!!!
For the price, even with delivery, they are way affordable!!!
Yes if you haven't notice I'm adding links to the SPANX, cos I have a feeling I'm going to be a very loyal customer should this work out!!
I'll report back soon as soon I purchase a pair and them out. :)
I love to wear skirts and dresses but found since gaining this weight, that simply wearing a slip or granny panties would not do the trick anymore to appear... smoother and avoid the chub-rub.
I was saying to a colleague the other day that this will be the year of dresses again etc... but I wasn't looking forward to the painful chaffing. And well, since I will be abstaining from sex for the next 6.5 months for the Accutane treatment, I do not have to worry about anyone seeing the unsightly appearance of that!
Chub Rub is what The Big Girl Blog calls it. It is the demise of your favourite jeans. It is the source of everything unsightly on your thighs when you want to be intimate or gawd forbid, wear a bathing suit.
You can be sure I'll be tracking down a pair of Spanx in the very near future and reviewing their product!
from the pictures on the Spanx Plus Size page, they look to be light weight and breathable. *phew*
There would be nothing worse than finding a magical cure for the chub-rub and then dying from over heating due to it.
The Spanx's come in all sorts of options. From panties, half leg, half calf, full body etc... Seriously, there is something for every outfit. Now I'm assuming that the site is in USD funds online.
Anyone know off the top of their head if I can purchase these things in the local department stores?
Better believe I'll be calling around soon.
I'm excited for this!
In addition The Big Girl Blog also posted a site for Jessica London wide calf boots!!! woot!
Got to love this girl. She has great style and shares her secrets with us!
Check these pretties out!! I'm getting them in Black and Carmel!!
Jessica London Boots and these!!!
For the price, even with delivery, they are way affordable!!!
Yes if you haven't notice I'm adding links to the SPANX, cos I have a feeling I'm going to be a very loyal customer should this work out!!
I'll report back soon as soon I purchase a pair and them out. :)
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