This commercial is from a couple years ago.
The song lifts my mood everytime.
Plus the birds are cool.
And here is the full version of the song.
Thursday, 31 March 2011
Wednesday, 30 March 2011
Dear Rain, You Can Go Suck It Already!
The rain can just go suck rocks now. Even for a born and raised Vancouverite living in a rain forest this is becoming just a tad ridonkulous. Yes REDONKULOUS!
It would be easier for me to tell you how many non-rainy days we've had than to explain how long it's been raining. Probably shy of a dozen days we've had non rain, even less for how many we've had with the sun out. So Dear Rain, Please go suck it, I think we're good til the middle of summer. Love, Just Saying.
I love falling asleep to the sound of rain pounding on the roof and tapping the windows. It reminds me of camping. You can not hear anything else but the rain, and I often imagine in my head that the swooshing sound cars make passing two blocks down are really the waves rolling in against the shore from a short distances away.,,,,, ZZZZZZzzzzzz sleeping. However, getting up in the morning (5am in my case) and hearing that thundering rain, was enough for this morning for me to do a quick pro/con list in my head of staying home today or dragging my ass out of bed.
Waaa waaa waaa in my head and it always comes down to this. If I'm not actually sick, I go to work.
It's better I do not take a truly unnecessary day off now when I might need it later. Then I'd be kicking myself. I have a fairly good work ethic about me. I come to work, ON TIME (rarely ever late due to my own accord). Sure there are days where you're not sick but a mental health day is needed. I've taken those and I've been straight up with my boss when I do it. I advise her that there are no pressing deadlines, credit cards to reconcile, oversea wire transfers etc to do. Basically I'm caught up. Not that I'm really ever super busy, but I do have daily deadlines. Those are the days when I know I wouldn't be able to compose myself professionally or appear emotionally stable. Thankfully those days do not come often. The last one was in July 2010 when I lasted 9 days on Yaz Birth Control.
Laying in bed I tried to justify a reason to stay home. Couldn't do it and the longer I laid in bed trying to convince myself to get upset or sick in the next 30 seconds as I hadn't gotten out of bed and was not running late. I had to get out of bed and rush to catch the 6:30 bus. *ugh*
It's just one of those days. I want to stay curled up in bed, pop in a movie and just veg, nap, soak in the tub, veg with more mindless fluff chick flicks and have a blissful day doing nothing. Extra points if I had a warm male body that smelled yummy to snuggle with.
I've been at work 3 hours now (it's only 10am) and I swear to gawd someone has switched out the regular coffee with decaf. Yes ladies and gents, I'm drinking regular coffee today and do not for one second believe there is caffeine in it. Maybe I need to step it up and directly insert the coffee IV into my arm. Ya that's probably it.
It would be easier for me to tell you how many non-rainy days we've had than to explain how long it's been raining. Probably shy of a dozen days we've had non rain, even less for how many we've had with the sun out. So Dear Rain, Please go suck it, I think we're good til the middle of summer. Love, Just Saying.
I love falling asleep to the sound of rain pounding on the roof and tapping the windows. It reminds me of camping. You can not hear anything else but the rain, and I often imagine in my head that the swooshing sound cars make passing two blocks down are really the waves rolling in against the shore from a short distances away.,,,,, ZZZZZZzzzzzz sleeping. However, getting up in the morning (5am in my case) and hearing that thundering rain, was enough for this morning for me to do a quick pro/con list in my head of staying home today or dragging my ass out of bed.
Waaa waaa waaa in my head and it always comes down to this. If I'm not actually sick, I go to work.
It's better I do not take a truly unnecessary day off now when I might need it later. Then I'd be kicking myself. I have a fairly good work ethic about me. I come to work, ON TIME (rarely ever late due to my own accord). Sure there are days where you're not sick but a mental health day is needed. I've taken those and I've been straight up with my boss when I do it. I advise her that there are no pressing deadlines, credit cards to reconcile, oversea wire transfers etc to do. Basically I'm caught up. Not that I'm really ever super busy, but I do have daily deadlines. Those are the days when I know I wouldn't be able to compose myself professionally or appear emotionally stable. Thankfully those days do not come often. The last one was in July 2010 when I lasted 9 days on Yaz Birth Control.
Laying in bed I tried to justify a reason to stay home. Couldn't do it and the longer I laid in bed trying to convince myself to get upset or sick in the next 30 seconds as I hadn't gotten out of bed and was not running late. I had to get out of bed and rush to catch the 6:30 bus. *ugh*
It's just one of those days. I want to stay curled up in bed, pop in a movie and just veg, nap, soak in the tub, veg with more mindless fluff chick flicks and have a blissful day doing nothing. Extra points if I had a warm male body that smelled yummy to snuggle with.
I've been at work 3 hours now (it's only 10am) and I swear to gawd someone has switched out the regular coffee with decaf. Yes ladies and gents, I'm drinking regular coffee today and do not for one second believe there is caffeine in it. Maybe I need to step it up and directly insert the coffee IV into my arm. Ya that's probably it.
Tuesday, 29 March 2011
I Don't Like You Right Now.
Everyone has managed to royally piss me off lately.
Instead of giving you the big run down of what is going on, just know I'm so.not.impressed. with anyone.
Right now my chosen family is under complete review right now. It's just occurred to me that they are MY chosen family, however, I may not be theirs. 7 years later and their latest stint (in addition to the last couple holidays) has made that fact much more evident. I'm not their family. So, I will get a new one. Period. Done.
Now taking applications to be a sole part of my chosen family. Bring your family dynamics with you. Apply within.
I also noticed how rarely I use my call display on my phone. I really need to start utilizing that or change having that option up with another one. I took a call from the Douche on Saturday. *sigh* and the more that shit head opens his mouth, the more and more I think blackmailing his ass in exchange for my silence, seems like a good idea. I AM going to present him with the option of buying me the following items below in order to not tell his finance (not that it will really matter, she'll stay with him) that he is perusing me and who knows who else for sex.
I want the following items:
Instead of giving you the big run down of what is going on, just know I'm so.not.impressed. with anyone.
Right now my chosen family is under complete review right now. It's just occurred to me that they are MY chosen family, however, I may not be theirs. 7 years later and their latest stint (in addition to the last couple holidays) has made that fact much more evident. I'm not their family. So, I will get a new one. Period. Done.
Now taking applications to be a sole part of my chosen family. Bring your family dynamics with you. Apply within.
I also noticed how rarely I use my call display on my phone. I really need to start utilizing that or change having that option up with another one. I took a call from the Douche on Saturday. *sigh* and the more that shit head opens his mouth, the more and more I think blackmailing his ass in exchange for my silence, seems like a good idea. I AM going to present him with the option of buying me the following items below in order to not tell his finance (not that it will really matter, she'll stay with him) that he is perusing me and who knows who else for sex.
I want the following items:
My two everyday perfume
Clinique Happy Heart for Women
Clinique Happy in Bloom
And for my feeling sexy perfume (any of the following will do, although I do want all of them at some point)
Very Irresistible by Givenchy
Ysatis by Givenchy
and last but not least
Opium for Women by the design house of Yves Saint Laurent
In addition to the perfume I want these boots
In this colour and/or black.
'Piper' Wide Calf Boot by Jessica London
'Piper' Wide Calf Boot by Jessica London
I think that should cover it for quiet awhile......
I'll let you know the outcome of my proposal to him. Who knows, he might surprise me and say no, and stay the hell away from me. Somehow, I doubt it.
Besides all that, I think everyone is incredible stupid today....just saying.
Monday, 28 March 2011
Thursday, 24 March 2011
Friends are my chosen family.
Over at The Restaurant Manager he posted an entry about being keeping it 100% honest. He wrote about loving his in-laws but not really caring for them as people as they do not see eye to eye on a lot of things. And how he viewed others at one point.
This struck a strong cord with me. As I actually had a dream of being somewhere with my 5 siblings (all older) and giving them the 'what for' and what I really thought of them and their actions, or lack thereof, towards me. Extra rudeness for my one sister in law who has never once in all the 29 years she's been married to my oldest brother has had one single positive thing to say, ever. Seriously.
I spent many many many years trying to connect with my siblings as I'm 12 yrs younger than the next oldest, and 19 years younger than my oldest sibling. About 5 years ago, I stopped making the effort. It was emotionally taxing to beat a dead horse into reciprocating interest in you or your life. That is until Ineglected forgot to call any of them on their birthdays or send Christmas cards. Well, wouldn't you know it, they all called me. Not out of concern in the sudden decline of calls, but to bitch at me that I didn't call or make the effort. WTH are my siblings? Really? I can not remember the last time any of them remembered to call me on my birthday or called to wish a marry xmas or gawd forbid, just because.
My youngest sister to me (12 years older) has always looked down her nose at everyone. I've disliked her for a very long time. But she is my sister and don't "they" say, in the end you only have your family? Ya, well my friends are my chosen family. Thank you.
So you can see why I do not make the effort any longer to get their acceptance or a relationship from them. When asked what stick crawled up my ass etc. I replied I"m simply reciprocating their efforts. Haven't heard form the one sister in two years.. oh darn.
The other point I wanted to touch on. The all high and mighty stool I stood on once. Well not exactly, but I did lack understanding of others situations before. My whole life I've been elite fit. An athlete. I spent time people watching and observing others, and often wondered why they couldn't lose weight. Why they worn certain clothes and didn't make more effort in their appearances etc. Never judging them for it, but I did not understand it. Then my mum passed away and I gained 80 lbs in 9 months. That is a lot of weight to pack on, it's an adjustment to the body, physically, mentally, emotionally and financially.
I had taken a job with an automotive parts company and although they were great while I grieved, the pay was shit. I could only afford to live in crummy places with questionable landlords and neighbours. Now, being on the plus size of weight, I saw the look on peoples faces as they looked at me. (mostly strangers). Having to buy clothes much more frequently than before (partly cos they would get ruined at work) it was a large strain on my already fragile state of mind.
I soon understood what it meant to be on the other side of that line. Not everyone can afford to even get to work, let alone make enough to live, have shelter, food, clothes etc. For many of them, it's one or the other, not all of it. What I still wonder about at times, is, if these people are down on their luck and granted the gov't does very little to help people get out of the welfare or EI system, wouldn't they have that hunger to strive to do better? Or are they stuck in the position due to lack of education. 'Get more' you say? Sure easy to say for someone who can afford it. But those who live pay check to pay check, where do you think they will get the extra funds to go to school, when some of them may be working several jobs just to get by? Then there are those who are fully capable financially, emotionally etc, but are simply lazy.
I soon changed jobs and ended up working at a gym. For the first couple years it was a blessing in disguise as I could work out for free. I managed to lose about 20 lbs and hated every minute of the gym, however I loved the results. Learning from co workers and my trainer at the time, not everyone can lose weight. It's not always about being lazy or eating poorly. It goes much deeper than that for some. Thyroid, pre exposed gene or disease prevents them from being successful.
It's many years later and I'm now employed with my 4th job in 23 years. I'm still a plus size, making more money than before, have better friends than before. Still have issues with my siblings. Although they seem to call once or twice a year to say Hi. Realizing I will not be making any efforts anytime soon.
Very recently a current co worker who lacks tact in every way imaginable said to me on the elevator "You'd be healthier if you took the stairs", in a special snarky tone she saves for those she talks down too. My first reaction was to put my fist in her mouth. Instead I gave her a hard look and replied calmly, "I'm out of shape, not unhealthy. There is a difference and for you to assume otherwise shows how ignorant you truly are." This only subsided her comments for a few months. Somewhere deep down inside of her she might have meant that comment and all others with the best intentions. But I doubt it. It actually came to a point this past Christmas, I asked why she felt so inconvenienced by whether or not I took the stairs.
She did not reply, just kind of shrugged, probably rethinking her decision to reply in her own best interest.
We do not see eye to eye. If she asked me questions without a snarky tone or talked to me as though I was beneath her some how. I might be more inclined to tell her why I do not take the stairs as often as I could. But will not dignify a response when its asked as though I owe them a reason.
I ran away with this a little, mostly cos I'm worked up thinking about my siblings and their lack of sense of family. Not to mention above said co worker is standing in the vicinity as I write this. maybe her ears are ringing?
If February/March over yet? It's tiring to be bitter.
This struck a strong cord with me. As I actually had a dream of being somewhere with my 5 siblings (all older) and giving them the 'what for' and what I really thought of them and their actions, or lack thereof, towards me. Extra rudeness for my one sister in law who has never once in all the 29 years she's been married to my oldest brother has had one single positive thing to say, ever. Seriously.
I spent many many many years trying to connect with my siblings as I'm 12 yrs younger than the next oldest, and 19 years younger than my oldest sibling. About 5 years ago, I stopped making the effort. It was emotionally taxing to beat a dead horse into reciprocating interest in you or your life. That is until I
My youngest sister to me (12 years older) has always looked down her nose at everyone. I've disliked her for a very long time. But she is my sister and don't "they" say, in the end you only have your family? Ya, well my friends are my chosen family. Thank you.
So you can see why I do not make the effort any longer to get their acceptance or a relationship from them. When asked what stick crawled up my ass etc. I replied I"m simply reciprocating their efforts. Haven't heard form the one sister in two years.. oh darn.
The other point I wanted to touch on. The all high and mighty stool I stood on once. Well not exactly, but I did lack understanding of others situations before. My whole life I've been elite fit. An athlete. I spent time people watching and observing others, and often wondered why they couldn't lose weight. Why they worn certain clothes and didn't make more effort in their appearances etc. Never judging them for it, but I did not understand it. Then my mum passed away and I gained 80 lbs in 9 months. That is a lot of weight to pack on, it's an adjustment to the body, physically, mentally, emotionally and financially.
I had taken a job with an automotive parts company and although they were great while I grieved, the pay was shit. I could only afford to live in crummy places with questionable landlords and neighbours. Now, being on the plus size of weight, I saw the look on peoples faces as they looked at me. (mostly strangers). Having to buy clothes much more frequently than before (partly cos they would get ruined at work) it was a large strain on my already fragile state of mind.
I soon understood what it meant to be on the other side of that line. Not everyone can afford to even get to work, let alone make enough to live, have shelter, food, clothes etc. For many of them, it's one or the other, not all of it. What I still wonder about at times, is, if these people are down on their luck and granted the gov't does very little to help people get out of the welfare or EI system, wouldn't they have that hunger to strive to do better? Or are they stuck in the position due to lack of education. 'Get more' you say? Sure easy to say for someone who can afford it. But those who live pay check to pay check, where do you think they will get the extra funds to go to school, when some of them may be working several jobs just to get by? Then there are those who are fully capable financially, emotionally etc, but are simply lazy.
I soon changed jobs and ended up working at a gym. For the first couple years it was a blessing in disguise as I could work out for free. I managed to lose about 20 lbs and hated every minute of the gym, however I loved the results. Learning from co workers and my trainer at the time, not everyone can lose weight. It's not always about being lazy or eating poorly. It goes much deeper than that for some. Thyroid, pre exposed gene or disease prevents them from being successful.
It's many years later and I'm now employed with my 4th job in 23 years. I'm still a plus size, making more money than before, have better friends than before. Still have issues with my siblings. Although they seem to call once or twice a year to say Hi. Realizing I will not be making any efforts anytime soon.
Very recently a current co worker who lacks tact in every way imaginable said to me on the elevator "You'd be healthier if you took the stairs", in a special snarky tone she saves for those she talks down too. My first reaction was to put my fist in her mouth. Instead I gave her a hard look and replied calmly, "I'm out of shape, not unhealthy. There is a difference and for you to assume otherwise shows how ignorant you truly are." This only subsided her comments for a few months. Somewhere deep down inside of her she might have meant that comment and all others with the best intentions. But I doubt it. It actually came to a point this past Christmas, I asked why she felt so inconvenienced by whether or not I took the stairs.
She did not reply, just kind of shrugged, probably rethinking her decision to reply in her own best interest.
We do not see eye to eye. If she asked me questions without a snarky tone or talked to me as though I was beneath her some how. I might be more inclined to tell her why I do not take the stairs as often as I could. But will not dignify a response when its asked as though I owe them a reason.
I ran away with this a little, mostly cos I'm worked up thinking about my siblings and their lack of sense of family. Not to mention above said co worker is standing in the vicinity as I write this. maybe her ears are ringing?
If February/March over yet? It's tiring to be bitter.
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