Who needs a paint drop cloth? Not me!

Ms. Elizabeth Singleton would be so proud. I'm painting my apartment.
Sort of.

I changed the knobs on both bedrooms, replacing them with ones with locks.
As I pried the old knobs off, I realized someone painted over the rims instead of removing them before painting. I hate that.  Making the new knobs look ridiculous.

Off to the paint store!
$70 later and I have a $40 gallon of paint and preimer in one, and a starter kit to paint the trims and all the doors/closets in my apartment.  Doors are off, washed, puttied, sanded and waiting to be painted.

At this point I have a drop cloth down, and after spilling a little excess, I stepped in it. Bare foot. lol  After finishing the first trim coat on all the doors, I bent over and backed my ass into the wet white paint. While wearing panties, not pants. geez. Having the drop cloth turned out to be more hassle than help. Though I managed to get much paint on my hands, apparently I'm sloppy.

Will finished the second coat tomorrow. I'll do the doors and hook everything back up. If I have company in the next day or two, they will using the loo without a door. Hope they're not bashful. ;-)

Hopefully tomorrow will be easier and less messy. :)

FYI - painting in panties is much cooler on a hot day.

I'm taking in a temporary houseguest/roommate.

Yup.
A friend caught me on chat tonight, wanting to know if I would rent my spare room to him for 3 months. September 1 - November 30/11.

After much chatting, discussions, and rules, I've agreed to the proposed arrangements upon meeting in person. I explained my hesitation due to the last horrible roommates I've had. I'm not an easy person to live with. Okay, not true. I am super easy to live with, as long as you're not disrespecting me, the rules (smoke outside, respect the noise levels after a certain hour and my stuff/apt).

I'm charging him $400. I was going to offer $300 for the room, until he mentioned he was paying 400 at the last place he stayed at.  I don't feel okay charging him 1/2 the rent for just a room.  Everything is included except, internet and food.  I already pay the bills for my own usage. Having him here for a few hours a night (when he's not working 14 hour days as an environmentalist) won't change how much the bills are.

He has a g/f! Bonus!
I've insisted she comes over often.  I do not need another g/f excusing me of being a home wrecker.  I want her to feel comfortable with him being here.  Normally I wouldn't care, I just do not have the energy for any drama.

Wish me luck!
I could really use this extra income to help with my trip next year.

p.s.
Since my past experience leaves a sour taste in my mouth, I think I'll put a new door handle on my bedroom door. One with a lock.

F#$%&@ You Accutane! 4.5 months.

It happened so gradually I didn't even feel it til the day before last.
I have dry eyes. Wait, according to my optometrist, I have severely dry eyes.

Day before last I was poking at my one eye a little. It looked as though I might have contracted pink-eye. Though it didn't hurt, or goop the way it should etc. Then thought, maybe I scratched the cornea or something stupid like that. For the last two months, I did notice my eyes felt a little irritate at night. Thought it was our on/off again summer or stupid allergies.

I have severely blocked eye lid ducts.  Fuck you Accutane.
He gave me a cleaning ritual with special eye lid wipes, hot compresses and drops (4x a day) Think of the way you would unclog a pimple or a boil. Same idea here, but with my eyes.  They don't hurt, but feel like I have one giant sty in my eye. :(
(ya that wasn't meant to rhyme).

He did the first treatment there in the office chair. Absolute bliss! I could feel my eyes say "ahhhhh thank you" as they were cleaned and lubricated properly.

So let's recap my restrictions again while on this drug.
*No sun.
*No alcohol.
*No Sex (unless taking a secondary birth control)
*NO EYE MAKEUP!..moving forward
FML. Kill me now. 
You've taken away the last thing that makes me feel pretty on the outside.
Or even human for that matter.

Mascara is not a optional choice for most women, its a necessity!
I have blonde lashes, red hair(naturally), extremely fair skin, and do not tan.
I look like a walking zombie!

I hate you Accutane.
You better make my skin immaculately amazing! just sayin.

Learn To Use Facebook Status/Wall Properly....Geez

You would think that a Senior Art Designer/Director at thee largest video game company in the world, (now working for a small company in Montreal) would know a thing or two about basic facebook usage....

Meet my ex. My first real love. JW.
We dated for 8 yrs and been in touch monthly.or.every.other.month.in.the.last.13 yrs without fail.  He lives in another province now with his wife. Who btw, hates anyone associated with his past. Friend. Girlfriend. Old Boss, etc. doesn't matter. If you're part of his past, you're dead to her. 

This is the behaviour of a doctor who specializes in Epidemiology/Medicine. My point of mentioning that, she's super smart, should be level headed, rational etc, and yet, acts like a child when it comes to her husbands past relationships. Takes all kinds I guess.

He wrote on his FB status that he'd be "In Vancouver July 23rd - 27th!"
"Sweet!" Or so I thought.

Sent him a quick private message asking what he was in town for (family is here) business or pleasure etc and if he wanted to meet up for coffee.  Nothing out of the ordinary, as any other time he's been here, we've met up.

Here's our email conversation.

Just Saying:
Hey!

How long are you in Vancouver for? Business/pleasure?
Coffee before you leave?
778-XXX-XXXX..

Jw:

Couple of days. Won't work unfortunately. How do u know I'm in van?

Just Sayin:
Another time then.
Is a secret you're in town?...

Jw:

Heh no.

But I haven't posted anything about being here at all, so was curious how you know...

Just Sayin:

You updated your facebook status a few days ago to say you'd be here July 23-27th.

Jw:

Oh. Sorry I can't. There won't be enough time.

As I went to reply to this message, I discovered he deleted me. Then learned about a dozen more from our circle here in town, as they one by one started chatter on their walls.

Just Sayin:

Really Jw? Was it necessary to delete me? And the rest of the group?

As for not having posted anything... what do you think the facebook wall/status is for? It let's every.single.person. on your friends list know what you're up too.

Hope the move (amusingly) back to town goes smoothly. It should feel like moving to a new town again, not knowing anyone, having to make new friends, etc.

I doubt I will ever get another reply. Though from past history of dealing with his wife (g/f at the time) this would indicate that they're moving back to town.  Once I feel as though I've been kicked in the crotch and spit on for no apparent reason, I will not spare your feelings and will give you an unnecessary jab in return.

What? I never said I was mature.

Must suck not to have any balls, or a spine.

I could understand if say... I were a phsyco ex-girlfriend, or the group of us friends were planning his demise, sure, by all means then, delete us. But to do it cos a few of got excited to see him?

Simply wow.

If it had been anyone else, I might think I had done something to provoke it.

This time, it's all him.

The Monsters Den

She went back.

I got the email an hour ago from LC (old house guest).
"things are okay. I'm moving back into the house this weekend.  Separate floors etc"

I broke down. I didn't know what else to do.  She's moving from the women's shelter she's been in for the last week or so, and into the house with the monster who has
1- closed fist punched her, bouncing her off a wall, and dislocating her jaw the first time. 2 - less than 3 weeks later, I received an email that it happened again and she's in a shelter. 

Someone please tell me why in the name of God (yes God) would she go back?
I'm surprised the shelter didn't call the ministry and have the kids placed into foster care. Sure its unfortunate they would be separated etc, but it would be the first step of breaking the cycle. She can tell the kids all she wants that "this is not how you let someone treat you" etc.. sadly, until she starts to lead by example, her girls I have no doubt will be smacked around by boyfriends in their coming years.

I'm sadly preparing myself for a future, for a life without my best friend of 24 years... Yes we have our issues, but they're back burner right now. 

It saddens me with great regret that the next time this happens, she won't get up off the ground. It will end her life.  If she's still alive by our 40th/41st birthdays, I'll be seriously surprised and will buy a lottery ticket. Morbid? Maybe. Though it will be a miracle if she survives another 2 years on this planet living in the same house as this monster.

It's hard to sit by knowing there is nothing I can do but to wait for that call. The call learning her life is over. The abuse is over. Then what? Does he move onto the kids? I even doubt he would ever physically harm them, and a despise the man. The damage he's done to them via their mum will be a lifetime of therapy already. 

All I can say is that having Ativan on hand today was a blessing.
Anyone know how much Ativan you have to take before you get a good high on?
I've told to take .5mg -1.5mg, up to three times a day as needed.  I've only taken 1mg.